before i fall deeper,

i feel like...
you seem to make everything right,
but i know it might not mean a thing to you.

yes, you smart ass, you know everything.
but me, i don't know a thing about whats on your mind.
you anticipate me,
but i can only guess.

and i don't wanna make the same mistakes again.
maybe i'm too paranoid to give myself any hope.

fire in your eyes.

why is it that when i finally looked into your eyes,

i saw anger.

i had a bad day.

and i'm sorry for not sparing a thought.

i can't even tell what was it excatly,
totally screwed up today.
i fail in everything.

when the night

the reasons always seem to be not strong enough to hold me together at night.

and it's the most difficult point of a day.

i'm only human, and i get tired of waiting.

i get tired of going on and on.

i need a shoulder to lean on.

saw you when i was in the crowd.

i wish i knew what's going on in your head.

Don't shut the door, don't shut me out
Don't make this be the last time that I see your hands
Cause I want them to hold me
is it time you let me in?

your company and goodnights are gems.
i don't want you to think of me as a bitch, but know who i really am skin deep.

Maybe i should,Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til i,Know you better

I am trying,Not to tell you
But i want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So i'm hiding what i'm feeling
But i'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now i found ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

i wonder whats going on when you listen to this song over and over again.
for i know for me.

don't waste your whole life trying, to get back what was taken away.

this song is my comfort.
and this is how i feel everyday after i listen to it.

keep that smile, when everything's wrong.

don't let it fade.

i'm just sharing this, cause i hope others find motivation in this song.

sometimes when we touch, the honesty's too much.

i changed too much since the day you left.

there's two types of sadness.

one is extreme emotion which comes and go fast.

another floats like a feather, its light and lingers for a long time.

i'm battling my pride.

living with this feather you left me, my last memory of you.

i let you go the last time i saw you,

i could never forget the look in your eyes that night.

it's like a picture of you i took and i kept it at the back of my mind.

i take it out everynight, so that i won't forget the way you look.

there was something about the look in your eyes that night.

gentle, but you know that i know what you're trying to tell me.

you're finally letting me go gently after our long struggle for nights.

that night you chose her, and left me a feather.

and like a feather, you feel so far from reach now.

cause you threw it from the night skies where the stars are

how long is it going to take till it reaches the ground?

i'm not going to wait, but boy, you don't know how much i have to say to you.

i wanna hold you till i die, till we both break down and cry.

i'm sick of this town,
i'm a creep,
i wished i was special, so fucking special.
just so you would take another look at me.

i know i'm a drifter, still searching, with failing determination.
everyone moved on, i'm moving along, just to make it through.

it's fucked up. i'm feaking fucked-up.

cause i can't hold you till we both break down and cry.

so,i have to close my eyes and hide.

"oversmoked" you used to say, now i'm drowning in my cigarettes.

you don't know me, you don't wear my chains.

feeling much better today.
loves.